I Was Always Different
I was always different. I realized I didn’t fit in with the many different crowds growing up because I was different. I’ve always been about my education and career, always wanting and searching for more out of life. I sacrificed a lot, more than anything I’ve sacrificed a lot of time and continue to do so. I’m still different, I know I don’t fit in.
Not fitting in used to bother me, but now I understand the reason. Now I understand my purpose. Working in my purpose requires me to be alone a lot of times and it requires me to be discipline.
While working on your purpose, you will have distractions. Life will throw many of these your way. You have to be willing to work through it. You have to push even harder when the going gets tough. You have to push through when people talk about you, lie on you, and when they do all they can to tear down your spirit. Remember this means they see you, they hear you and you are relevant. If you weren’t they wouldn’t try so hard to destroy you.
Walking in your purpose requires you to be different. It’s ok to not fit in. God has something special for you, so keep sacrificing, keep working, and keep walking.
This year I have been very intentional about focusing on taking care of myself. I constantly give so much of my time to other things, that I had to sit down and realize I have to make time to pour back into myself. Without me doing things for me, I will not be able to give of myself the same way in those other areas of my life.
Things that help to fill me back up consists of praying, writing, and taking time to unplug from the world, including social media. This year has felt really different from any other. This year we have been faced with seeing a virus take over the world, police brutality and two legends make their exit to heavenly paradise. Some of us have lost family members from the coronavirus. It’s been rough. I hope that you are taking care of yourself. I hope that somewhere in between all the chaos you are finding a place of peace.
I am at peace these days. Is peace an easy place to always reside in? No. But when you make the effort to intentionally protect your inner space then it becomes a lot easier. Chapter 30 of my life has shown me the resiliency I’m truly made of. It has taught me the essence of protecting my peace. Life is not a fairytale, however when you make time for God, and time for yourself, He will restore your energy and peace.
Rest In Heavenly Paradise,
Kobe Bryant, Chadwick Boseman, the African Americans who we have lost to police brutality and the coronavirus victims
I'm an East Carolina University alumna. I have experience in journalism, law, radio broadcasting, television production and teaching. My goal is to make a difference in the world through media and motivational speaking.